My Story…

Like so many others who find themselves in this extraordinary space where science meets spirituality, I took a long winding road to get here. I would say my journey consciously began at a summer camp when I was a teenager. On the last night of camp, everyone was gathered around the campfire singing. We had a really talented music director, so in my memory we sounded more like a beautiful choir and not like a group of kids just singing camp songs. Something about the warm summer air, the open sky full of stars, the beautiful melody, and the positive energy flowing from everyone caused my chest to burst open and my heart to start expanding. I felt completely saturated in love. It was the first time I was aware of feeling loved by the Universe, or God, or whatever name you use. I felt like my heart was going to explode with the love radiating out of me, and like I could never soak in all the love permeating through me from some other source. My entire body was buzzing with energy. Because I identified as a Christian at the time, I referred to it as God. I remember writing in my diary that night, “Oh my gosh, God is actually real!”

After that night, I spent so much time trying to chase that feeling, but it would be years before I experienced it again.

When I was in college, I was introduced to the book “The Celestine Prophecy”. It was unlike anything I had ever read, and I was obsessed with it. I can remember reading it late into the night, with a tiny reading light so I wouldn’t disturb my roommate; staring at my hand under the dim light, trying to see my aura. But after I finished the book, I didn’t know how to find other books of its kind. This was 1994, and I lived in a small town in Oklahoma. There were no metaphysical bookstores there, no internet yet, no Amazon. So, I went about my life and soon forgot about it. I graduated and started working in the corporate world.

When my son, Jake, was born in 2006, I had another compelling experience. As I held him in my arms, looking at him for the first time, the first thought that popped into my head was “I remember you.” I felt as though I had met him before. It seemed like such a strange notion at the time. I had never put any thought into reincarnation, but I definitely had a genuine feeling that I remembered him. One day when he was around 4 years old, I looked at him and had the thought “Oh, you used to be my parent, but now I’m your parent.” When these types of thoughts happen, it is so peculiar, because they seem completely outlandish and also 100% accurate at the same time. They don’t feel as if they are my own thoughts, they feel as if they have been placed in my mind. They are extremely subtle, and if I don’t pay attention, I could easily miss them. However, if I do pay attention, I notice my entire body starts to tingle.

In 2008, I had a miscarriage. And the strange thing is, I did not feel as heartbroken as I thought I should be feeling. My husband and my mom were sad for days afterwards, and I kept wondering “What is wrong with me? I was the one carrying the baby, it happened to me, why am I not as sorrowful as they are?”  I received the answer a couple years later. 

My daughter, Avery, was born in 2009, and immediately we had an incredible bond. For the first 14 months she was only happy when she was with me. I felt bad for anyone else who tried to hold her, especially my husband. She wanted nothing to do with anyone else. It was exhausting that she only wanted me, but I could feel the connection we had; so I kind of understood it, even though I couldn’t explain it. When my daughter was 2 years old, I had another one of those subtle thoughts, “Avery was the soul I miscarried. She told me she was coming back.” Immediately, my entire body was tingling. I began laughing and crying at the same time. I finally understood why I wasn’t heartbroken at the time of the miscarriage. She had subconsciously let me know not to worry, that she would return.

Around this time I became enthralled with stories about Near Death Experiences. I would spend hours on NDERF.org reading thousands of people’s stories. And from there I took a deep dive into all things metaphysical. 

In 2019, I had a wonderful reading from a Psychic Medium who confirmed my thoughts about Jake being my parent in a past life and Avery being the soul I miscarried. Neither of these topics were on my mind, and I had not asked the medium any questions regarding my children. When she gave me this information so matter-of-factly, without any prompting, it was extremely validating. It was at that point I knew I wanted to learn as much as possible about the abstract, immaterial world around us.

Over the years I began regular yoga, meditation, and breathwork practices. I love all types of transcendental modalities. I enjoy working with crystals, pendulums, oracle cards, automatic writing, channeling, hypnosis, energy healing, chakras, Akashic records, etc. I am more adept at some modalities over others, but I enjoy them all. And the more I have opened myself up in this manner, the more unbelievable, beautiful, meaningful experiences I have had.

I found Quantum Human Design™ in 2020. Initially, I was intrigued by the fact that it’s a combination of science and spirituality. I fell in love with it, because it helped me truly understand myself. I finally understood why I love to bounce around from one interest to another, why I tend to take shortcuts in so many areas, why I have such a good memory, why I have so much energy, why I can be closed minded at times, why I can be a chameleon in any group, and how to understand my waves of emotions. It helped me begin to like all the characteristics about myself that I used to criticize. I started to see my gifts and love them, and to see my challenges as opportunities for growth. And I didn’t stop with my chart, I poured over my children’s charts. I quickly realized how I could parent them differently based on what they needed. 

The more I learned about QHD, the more interesting it became. Before I knew it, I was enrolling in Dr. Karen Curry Parker’s Quantum Human Design™ certification course. Throughout the training I would do mini readings for friends and family, and I could see how beneficial it was to others as well. I really enjoy working with college-aged kids and young adults who are just beginning their independent lives. It is incredibly rewarding to help them understand and embrace who they are, so they can go out into the world more confident and authentic. Working with moms of young children is also a favorite. Helping a mom understand her child’s needs; whether it be an emotional, behavioral, communication, or energy need is also quite fulfilling. But overall, I love helping anyone learn how their personal energy works in the world, helping them discover their best way to make decisions, how to live their life purpose, how to create healthy relationships that honor who they are, how to activate greater vitality and well-being, and what they can do today to start living a life that is aligned with who they truly are.

Whatever brought you here, honor it. If it was one of those subtle thoughts, be sure you give it the recognition it deserves; listen, and follow it.